NO ONE expects to get cancer
NO ONE expects to get cancer from Asbestos ... unless maybe you are a miner and you know it's a risk..... we certainly were not expecting that
not my dad
my mom always said in reply to me saying "thats not fair" with " what's fair? there is no measure of fair"
nope and yet I want to stomp on the ground in a good old fashioned 2 year old temper tantrum screaming at the air THIS IS NOT FAIR
yet this is happening
how is cancer fair? .... it's not.... it's random and it sucks
for me I feel like I am standing on a melting iceberg ... trying to stand on my faith .. on what I have been taught my entire life .. I have seen miracles .. my children are! I've seen people get healed ... I know that prayer works .. I believe in a living God ... I believe in miracles
being scared to believe TOO much or TOO publicly is a real thing ... "what if's" circle the brain ... what if someone doesn't believe in God if dad doesn't get healed? what if I look like a fool? what if people think I am ridiculous?
when it comes down to it at the end of the day I believe in God's Word... that it was ALL paid for on the cross .. it's been done .... why do bad things still happen? we live in a fallen world simply put... BUT we still win even if we don't get our miracle here on earth .... because we have the Word that says to be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord
I am so encouraged by all the love and support that we are receiving ... my dad has touched so many people in his 69 years ... he is an incredible man ... and right now I am spending as much time with him as I can and with a small baby and a house of teens sometimes I feel overwhelmed ... and my sister and her family are all staying with me right now as well ... I am looking past the mess of my house knowing it doesn't really matter .. and I can hardly stand to watch TV.. what a waste of time, I definitely have a shift in my life happening and family is so important ... time with people is so important not the results of X factor or days of our lives ....
LIFE IS PRECIOUS !!
more later.... baby is calling me!