17 Weeks and counting

To say that I didn't think I would get this far is an understatement!

It's not cuz I didn't want too but I pretty much was convinced that this too would have ended in miscarriage.

I read some stats today

here are some interesting and probably a little scary stats

After two miscarriages, one still has a 91.2% chance of successful pregnancy; drops to 20% after 7

Subsequent Live Birth Rate According to the Previous Number of Miscarriages

Previous number of miscarriages           2             3             4             5             6             7
- Live birth rate for the first
   pregnancy after examination                76.3%      66.1%     59.0%     53.3%    31.3%      13.3%
- Cumulative success rate                      91.2%      82.9%     76.0%     73.3%    56.3%      20.0%
-Abnormal embryonic karyotype              68.3%      56.5%     65.0%    25.0%    28.65%    20.0%

http://fuiku.jp/report/data_21k/21k_07.pdf

I've had 8 miscarriages!

Risk of miscarriage increases by 43% when partner is age 35, by 90% at age 50

The risk of miscarriage between weeks 6 and 20 of pregnancy was studied using a model adjusted for maternal age. Among women aged less than 30 years, the hazard ratio of miscarriage associated with paternal age of 35 years or more was 1.56 for first trimester miscarriage. When male age was coded into smaller categories, the adjusted risk of miscarriage was lowest when the man was aged less than 25 years and highest when the man was aged more than 45 years. The hazard ratios predicted for paternal ages of 35, 40, 45, and 50 years were, respectively, 1.43, 1.58, 1.74, and 1.90. In conclusion, the risk of miscarriage increased with increasing paternal age.
http://aje.oxfordjournals.org/content/161/9/816.long

Paul is 43!

Miscarriage risk increases after age 35; increases 5 fold after age 40

There was no difference in odds of miscarriage below the age of 35 years, but the odds rose sharply thereafter, with a 75% increase for mothers aged 35–39 years and a five-fold increase where the mother was aged 40 and above (relative to mothers aged 25–29 years).
http://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1111/j.1471-0528.2006.01193.x/full

I am 40 years old!

Miscarriage risk increases with previous losses, smoking, and working outside the home

The risk of early miscarriage was higher for women with a past history of early miscarriage; odds ratio was 1.98 for one previous miscarriage, 2.36 for two, and 8.73 for three or more. Other factors also influence risk; an odds ratio of 2.39 was found for women who smoked, and 1.65 for women working outside the home.
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/21156724

I don't smoke but I do work outside the home

anyways I could post so many more ... it's pretty easy to say the stats were not in my favour!!

I have mentioned this before and I don't want to sound like a broken record ... and I totally believe that ALL life is a miracle and a gift from God! I in no way think my kids are more special then any one else's kids ... ok well maybe some :) haha kidding ... but when I read these stats I am in awe that I have my girls!

I still sort of feel a little in shock or surprised that I am now 17 weeks and counting!! baby's heartbeat was a strong 150 today and everything is measuring normal from the outside.. I will be having a detailed ultrasound in a couple of weeks. The triple marker test that I had done came back very positive!! I tested below whats normal for my age group and that is a good thing!! The test is not perfect and the Dr still warned that sometimes things go undiagnosed in utero ... I know I know but I have way more peace having these test results!!

I did get a wee bit of a talk about my work schedule... it's crazy... I am a workaholic and I know it! I love working ... but lately I have been so tired that many times I come home from work and simply lay on my bed and cry.... my blood pressure is typically really low ... like I get asked are you alive? and while it's not "high" right now  ... it's high for me... so my Dr told me I need to slow down... way way way down... and like right now. GAH ... and I know it cuz of the tears and the exhaustion and the worry and the full time job of just keeping myself peaceful and while that is becoming easier as time goes by it's amazing how quick that peace can be stolen away. I could go on about how my body feels but I will spare you the extra whining :) 

It was so assuring today to see the look on my dr's face as he looked for the heartbeat on his doppler... even though it took a bit thanks to the anterior position of the placenta! but when we both heard the heartbeat both our faces had the biggest smile!! My dr is so excited and he said " you beat the odds Lise you totally beat the odds"

Sometimes I wonder why I have managed to beat these odds.... why did I manage to have the girls and now this baby and so many don't? " why " is a dangerous question to sit on ... sometimes there are no answers!! For me I really have believed the Scripture from Psalm 37 ... everyone should have a Psalm and my entire life this particular Psalm was a rock for me 

Psalm 37:4New International Version (NIV)

Take delight in the Lord,
    and he will give you the desires of your heart.

I have believed my whole life that God will give you the desires of your heart and the realization that I had before I had my Emily after 5 miscarriages in a row and hadn't  given up even though the dr's were saying maybe thats enough now... is because one day when I was reading this chapter over and I came to verse 4, I really felt the Lord impress on me that the reason why He gives us the desires of our hearts is that HE is the ONE who placed the desire there in the first place!! He created us, He knows us and knitted us together in the Womb... so if He created me to be me with the strong desire to have children.. and lots of them!! :) then He will bring it to pass... He isn't  going to give a desire He won't fulfill...our part is to Trust delight and commit ourselves to Him... 

Trust (lean on, rely on, and be confident) in the Lord and do good; so shall you dwell in the land and feed surely on His faithfulness, and truly you shall be fed.
Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He will give you the desires and secret petitions of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord [roll and repose each care of your load on Him]; trust (lean on, rely on, and be confident) also in Him and He will bring it to pass.
(Amplified version)


This doesn't mean bad things don't still happen ... cuz they do.... and it doesn't mean that you get your desires ALL the time..people still die and people still hurt and people still hurt people ... and I have no answers to that,  but for me, trusting in God and having that Faith, even if it's small!! mine so often is ... believing in something greater then myself ... it's a good way to live.

I love the saying " all things work together in the end and if things haven't worked out yet that is because it is still not the end". (taken from the movie "The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel" which is an awesome must see movie by the way!!!)










1 comment:

Janice Martin said...

Love is .......all of it....keep on keeping on, my friend