confessions of an almost 40 year old .... part 3

As I attempt to come to grips with myself in regards to my body image I am doing a LOT of self talk ... like a lot .... telling myself to accept the things that I cannot change and to change the things that I can...

I am walking again most mornings and trying to do my 30day AB challenge... which is not really 30 days anymore at this point ... and I am doing a modified version cuz I could barely roll over in bed let alone function ... but I am DOING them :) just at my own pace ... and I am good with that!

This whole turning 40 thing has me in circles ... I tried on summer dresses this morning (cuz its hot and I still will never do shorts no matter how much I learn to love  my body!) and discovered that some just don't look the same on me anymore ... they fit ...but just fit differently and I am learning to be ok with that ... so as I put another dress on I realized I am gravitating towards a little ... ummm less young looking dresses. It's happening people...  my style is getting a little more age appropriate :) whatever that means!

So the things about myself that I cannot change ... at least not FULLY is my , um my large ASSet...

yup this is as real as it gets here people ... 

no matter how "skinny" I have ever been, THAT part of me has always been a little bigger then "average" .... and no matter what stage of weight I have been I have always had a hate on with that particular ASSet! 

I would love to do something about the dark circles under my eyes but I am pretty sure that while my teenagers are teenagers there is not much I can do about them!

My skin is changing and .....well it's starting to hang and just feel so different ... I am totally for a little Nip and Tuck down the road ..not to change how I look but to keep from looking older then I am , or at least as one friend put it, Like I just woke up fresh in the morning! 

ok I honestly had SOOOO much more to say but for the past hour my 14 year old has been standing/sitting beside me talking  and demanding my attention NON~STOP that I keep loosing track of my thought pattern/process and yah ... I kind of lost of all that I wanted to say! but I think that it had something to do with being confident in Who I am and yet always struggled with How I looked and all that that did and yadda yadda yadda blah blah blah ... I think I have posted enough about this now :) 

oh well... at any rate, I am trying and I read lots of inspiring "love your body" articles and I am waking up with a purpose everyday to be accepting of myself and just overall more comfortable in my skin!

and yes this is a cheesy "selfie" taken IN my closet this morning ... I was tempted to post a full silhouette but thought better of it soon after hahaha!!

18 days and counting till 40 ..... OMG!! 

1 comment:

Susan (5 Minutes for Mom) said...

You look fabulous... fun selfie.

The whole body image thing is so tough... I really want to try to focus on just being healthy. I need make time to exercise just to get healthier... sigh.