it's coming .....

que Jaws music

dun dun dun dun

When I was a kid I started planning my birthday party pretty much as soon as everyone left my current birthday party!! I have always been a planner and why I am probably so good at catering events! It's just in my nature! my youngest is just like me .. she has SEVERAL notebooks planning her birthday, every page has a title and she knows what she wants to do down to the minute ... ahhhh a girl after my own heart!

This year the birthday is a number I am not too eager to embrace and so I have been a little hesitant to make any decisions or plans ... I know I have blogged about this before... so forgive the repeat but it's my blog and I can say what I want too :)

The closer it gets .... the louder the Jaws music is getting in my head!

I would never want to be in my 20's again ... although in my 20's is when my babies were born and I could have had a hundred babies I LOVE LOVE LOVE babies!! I love kids too but there is just something so special and amazing about new babies! I try to imagine their cute little chubby baby faces when they are off on a stupid teenage tantrum to keep me ... sane, calm, remembering I actually love the creature standing in front of me :) haha jk ...sort of!

Would I want to be in my 30's again????!!! mmmmm not the first half but the last couple of years have been amazing and I am quite happy and satisfied with where I am and who I am.

I do want my younger more fit tighter skinned body back though :) .... without having to go through the pain to get it :) ha

so now as the clock ticks down .... the sands in the hour glass thin out .... I am approaching a new decade ... not embracing it yet but trying to just be ok with it ... baby steps people baby steps!

It's just a number I know I know but it's a number I remember my mom being .... my mom became a grandma at 40 ... and since now we know that there are no more babies in my future I can look forward to my kids babies ... ok not really, one day down the road ... far far down the road!!

It just so happens that this year on the actual BIG day ... I will be catering a Grad Banquet ... so no time to party or celebrate that day ... but I am thinking I will be disappointed if I don't embrace it and the best way I know how to do that ... is plan a party!! ok  now I hear Rod Stewart in my head " we're planning a party ...." I don't even like Rod Stewart but it's better then the Jaws theme music!!

what did you do for your 40th Birthday?! I am thinking most likely mine will just be a party at my parents restaurant....but maybe hiring a band cuz this girl LOVES to dance!!


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