lack of time
lap top was broken...still broken just replaced cord as repair would have cost more then what I paid for the laptop and I asked Santa..aka daddy... for a new one! not holding my breath but will wait for a killer deal before I buy a new one that my girls will be kept far far away from!!
did I mention lack of time?
Christmas is my playoffs at the bakery and I go into overdrive...which is a setting higher than my usual high speed drive!
sickness...been a weird couple of weeks with me fighting some weird flu/food poisoning thing then I ended up in the ER in such unbelievable pain the other night and it ended up that I have a ruptured cyst and so my abdomen cavity is full of blood and fluid... I look pregnant!! it's brutal painful and now have to go into the ER for IV antibiotics for a week...good times!!
so...it's been crazy!
the girls have gone to stay for 1 weekend and 1 week at their dads this past month...needless to say while I enjoyed having a clean house for the time they were gone going from chaos to complete silence was unnerving and there are other emotions and crap that brought up for me but I won't blog about it here...it was hard to say the least.
so many firsts this year.... too many
now Christmas is looming just a few short hours away and I am trying to put on a brave face as my tummy aches and my hand hurts from the shunt that I keep banging and hurt while doing oodles of laundry and tiding up since the girls are home the mess is trying to take over!
It's hard to believe a year has gone by.
I look forward to 2012 and as I continue to go down this journey I am on and discovering more about what I want..what my goals are...what my core values are...what I want for my girls and I... I know challenges will continue to present itself and I will face each one with a little whining and complaining :) and yet a determination that sometimes takes a while to get going to conquer it all and make the best life that I can for my Fab 5.
I wish you all a very Merry Christmas and leave you with my little twist on the classic story
"Twas the Night Before Christmas"
twas the night before Christmas and all thru the house not a creature was stirring ..not even a mouse...FAITH NOT THE CHINA,,crash boom bang...the stockings were hung by the chimney with care... GIRLS STOP FIGHTING RIGHT NOW....In hopes the St Nicholas soon would be there...FOR THE HUNDRETH TIME YOU CANNOT OPEN THE PRESENTS TONIGHT NOW STOP ASKING....the children were nestled all snug in their bed...s...SNORT SNORT YEAH RIGHT!!!.....while visions of sugar plums danced in their heads...MORE LIKE IN THEIR MOUTHS AS THEY ATE ALL MY CHOCOLATES....and momma in her kerchief, and I in my cap had nestled down for a long winters nap....THERE SOMEONE IN MY BED??? SAY WHAT??!!!....When out on the lawn there rose such a clatter....I SAID GIRLS STOP FIGHTING.....I sprang from the bed to see what was the matter....MORE LIKE YELLED AND THEN ROLLED BACK OVER....and to the window I flew like a flash...SNORT SNORT YOU SEEN THIS GIRL RUN??!! ....tore open the shutters and threw up the sash.... OK GIRLS FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THATS GOOD STOP FIGHTING... I give up santa comes in the morning yadda yadda yadda