I am at the point inside of me where I am starting to feel like a grown up! I think/hope that I am starting to act like one 2. I have such a different perspective now. I have such a different and more clear grasp on things/events/people in my life. I feel like I am gaining control. I feel like I see a path in front of me and it's never been so clear.
Getting to the bottom of myself was the best thing that has happened to me in a long time.
Now I can grow. Now I am growing.
Now I feel like I can start repairing the damage/hurt that was done to my girls. I feel like I am heading in the right direction. I am excited about it. I am also aware of the amount of hard work needed to do the repairs needed. My girls have been in their own survival mode and it's time to start anchoring them. I need to keep learning and setting boundaries and teach them the same. I know it's not going to be easy and they are already pushing me where I am drawing lines in the sand..but I know it's best for them...its the right thing to do.
Going to counseling and now taking the girls is one of my wisest decisions!!! it is going SO well and while each session costs money I know we are at the point where we cannot afford to NOT go! its so worth it. If you are looking for a good place in my area email me and I will recommend where I am going! Getting something to help me sleep at night was also wise....sleep deprivation just messes with your head and is NOT healthy!
There are other things that I am doing that are total steps forward..steps of faith and trust and rebuilding but this time it's on a fresh and healthy foundation! so I believe all these things are ingredients for hope and a great life!
Just another reminder to pop over to my friends site and support her daughter to raise money for her trip to New York this summer....this family has been thru SOOOOOO much and yet are full of love and grace and give so much of themselves even in the worst imaginable circumstances they are in.... really inspiring family!