choice

I cannot believe it has been almost a month since I last blogged. So much has happened and yet I simply cannot blog about it here. Just too personal.

I will say this. Change is guaranteed and a constant in life. Family is worth fighting for. Taking a stand for what is right is a good thing to do. Allowing grace and mercy to rule over judgment is the only way to live.

Now while I say all that I admit that living it out is at best a challenge. Raising children is a challenge. Raising a teenager is a challenge. Having an exchange student at times can be a challenge. Working full time with a house full is a challenge. Being married is a challenge. Being a woman with the full range of blessed emotions we have...is sometimes a challenge. Being a friend who is a good friend is sometimes a challenge. Don't even get me going on housework...that is near impossible :)

So how does one do it all?

seriously I am asking...... anyone out there at all have the answers ??? :)

life simply is a challenge. a race. a journey. It's all that and more.

I choose mercy and grace over judgment and I choose to love and stand up for what is right.

And when I have done all else.... I stand.

and a note to my girls who one day will read this blog/journal and remember this un-bloggable time in life, this blip in time. You my dear precious ones are my reason for being on this earth. You are my greatest joys and accomplishments. You are loved forever and completely and even though life threw some unfair situations at us and there are times when things looked bleak and miserable...you were loved and cherished, your laughter lifted my soul and your beaming faces are linked to my very core. Forever and always my babies you'll be.

ETA:
ok so I guess I should clarify a little so no one thinks we are dying over here!! everyone is alright! J still has numbness and is still going to monthly treatments and is on meds, it, life, has just been a struggle with more than 1 issue for a longer period of time than normal..... you know life but just a little harder then easy breezy.

2 comments:

Patti said...

Hey Girl,

I believe that this was posted from your heart to your girls and from the Father's heart to you....

His Heart in in you and shines through you, but I thought you should hear and read this......this way....

and a note to my girl who one day will (re)read this blog/journal and remember this un-bloggable time in life, this blip in time. You my dear precious one are my reason for giving my life on this earth. You are my greatest joy and accomplishment. You are loved forever and completely and even though life threw some unfair situations at you and there are times when things look bleak and miserable...you are loved and cherished, your laughter lifts my soul and your beaming face is linked to my very core. Forever and always my baby you'll be.

rena said...

Mercy TRIUMPHS over judgement!! Love it. And yes, hard hard lesson, one that takes a ton of grace, and because Holy Spirit lives in you, you have all the mercy and love and grace you will ever need. Always here for you!