Managing from the heart

I made the cheese costume with help from my sis....this was waiting for the parade to start

my little foofoo after torturing her to get the make up on....she kept saying it was blue and not quite believing me it was indeed grey and if she could just sit still long enough for me to finish she would see she was a grey mouse not a blue mouse...ugh that was fun!!


This week has been an interesting week to say the least. We found out 9 days before the local Spirit of the Sea Festival that my store made it into the parade even though we entered really late. I was shocked and thrilled and then went into overdrive to make sure we could pull it off and pull it off well. I think we did it. It was quite the adrenaline rush and crazy and amazing and overwhelming and positive and tiring and thrilling...pretty much all rolled into 1. I felt like I have been hit with a semi truck today, just totally wiped. All the emotion, thought, work, talk, and dreams ( I dreamt of the parade so much before and last night was ALL parade in my dreams) that today I feel today drained of anything left in me. I put so much into what I do. I put so much of me into work. All these things are good but it does come with a price.

When you manage from the heart I think you tend to get hurt more! Without going into any details, as I just don't think that it's appropriate for me to do here, I had a ringer of a week with a staff...now former staff. It drained me. Left me feeling a little insecure and unsure of myself. In fact it was quite an eye opener for me in how I operate the store and my life. I think it is safe to say that I am a passionate person in all that I do. I love passionately and yes I hate passionately as well. I leave myself quite open with people and when they mistreat that and I realize I have allowed that.....ouch. It hurts. In the process I become quite upset at myself as well for not being stronger and allowing it to get to me. But then I realize, that's all a part of who I am and how I do things. I do think I can learn how to do things better! I am learning to go with my instinct, that I can trust my instinct and have to at times stand up for that instinct at work and in my personal life.

Anyways I could ramble on and on but the long and short of it is, I don't want to repeat this week, the parade yes! the drama NO! I think part of getting older is learning how to be the best you and I think with the new changes that are going to take place shortly at work, and with time and experience and confidence I think that I will continue to manage from the heart, just smarter!


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