The Dr told me I wouldn't really feel the effects of the meds for about 5 days....today is day 6 and I have to say....I feel really good today. I cleaned like a mad woman..although I must remember to wear gloves cuz bleach/cleaners and eczema covered fingers DON'T mix! ouch. I had a couple of days of feeling groggy...specially in the morning. I am sleeping better and it almost feels as if I am getting too much sleep...is that even possible? but once I am up and at'em I don't feel groggy anymore and am ready to start the day. I actually can't believe how much energy I had today....I haven't had this kind of energy for years.
It's all a strange thing for me still. For me, admitting that I was not coping and depressed felt like some kind of failure to me. Like I should be some kind of emotional superwoman and face all that life has thrown at me with a smile and super sized shoulders! Crazy in theory but a deeply rooted belief.
I have made myself small daily goals....and I am pleased to say that my first goal...tucking the girls into bed...and was my highest priority... I am doing that again. This may seem strange but for the past 3 years now I couldn't bring myself to get up off the couch and tuck them in......so simple and even surprises me still at the lack of energy I have been dealing with for so long. The other is to go for a walk a couple of times a week...which I am also achieving...and want to build up to every day! I also am planning on joining a gym and the thought is not making me want to crawl into the fetal position!!
I have to say that if this is the result of the meds and I can only assume that it is, then I am SO glad I am on them! and I can't believe I waited 3 years to do something about it!