they say that things come in 3's.... it feels like right now things are coming in 300's!
when it rains it pours
yah...welcome to lala's world! where we are all going a little lala!
k now I am just getting weird
Emily said the other day I wish we could go to Disneyland right now...and NEVER come back! what an insightful 10 year old, I am THERE baby!
really really NOT doing well at taking things one by one right now.....can you tell?
so this is my therapy, this is where I can pour it all out so that one day I can hopefully look back and say, wow it wasn't that bad, or look how far we have come..... you know all those really annoying sayings! :)
I am not in a good mood! can you tell?
my visa went missing..... I thought it was somewhere here in the house, these days I seem to misplace things a lot and am quite scatterbrained, I know gasp shocking! anyways I went on-line last night just to check that no one has been using it which to me would confirm that it is here in my house, in a jacket pocket somewhere.....nope....someone has been using it. a ton of withdrawls have been made from my visa. cash withdrawls. adding up to around $300ish. I was like oh man....called visa, cancelled my card, reported fraud and then sat back and talked to J. You see the weird thing, the small voice at the back of my head saying there is more going on here, was saying how odd that someone figured out my PIN...they were withdrawing $$ from ATM's, so they had to know my PIN....but how?! more nagging going on...now J is bothered..... so we ask the teenager in the house......have you seen my visa?.... nope...... really? are you sure?..... yup....cuz it's just odd that someone knows my PIN and is taking small amounts every couple of days...... nope I don't have it.......hmmmmmm well just so you know the police will be doing an investigation and you know they have camera's in the ATM's so they will catch whoever it was........pause........ok well as long as we don't find out from the police our daughter was committing fraud.......pause, you could almost feel the panic in the air..mostly from me!.... then a well let me just check my wallet.....oh no sinking heart stomach in my throat......well I have moms bank card....hmmm wondered where it went thought I lost it already replaced it......no it's not in my wallet, let me check downstairs, what does it look like?.... green says VISA on it.....I feel sick to my stomach......she comes up a minute later.... is this it?......heart actually breaks here.... yup that's it.
I have had cash going missing from my wallet for awhile now too...hard to prove.... no one fessus up.....now I know who!
much crying, much dissappointment, so much sense of a loss creeping all over me. grief. she cries, I don't deserve to go to Disneyland, just leave me at home with nana and papa. no it's a family holiday, a once in a lifetime holiday you are going, no really I don't deserve it just leave me at home, just drop that cuz you are going and it's not about the holiday.
so she is grounded, no computer (no Facebook), no friends, no nothing until the $ is paid back and trust is starting to be regained. what else do you do? (seriously asking, anyone know???!!!)
what did she spend all that money on in 3 weeks you ask? candy..and food at school.... that is a LOT of candy and food!
I didn't sleep last night. I tossed and turned and had anxiety, disbelief and heartache. It really is true what they say about your children being able to cause you the most pain.
So now we are wondering what more we should do? Christian school? is that the answer? is this "teenager" behaviour? I certainly never stole from anyone let alone my parents!! and what gets me is she knew I was looking for it, knew I needed it so I can finalize our trip, I even mentioned in front of her to my parents last night that I knew someone had been using it and reported it....so bizarre to me.
I am really struggling on how to feel about this one. It is starting to feel a little ridiculous all the things that are happening blow after blow to us. Like ENOUGH already!
I stayed home again today, I don't think I could be very nice to anyone! just being real. This sucks. I know we have to try to turn it around, just not sure how right now.
edited to add: we talked to her about why she did this, she was buying food for her friends at school, trying to fit in, trying to be liked, feeling self-conscious in a very BIG school. not that it is an excuse but definitely gives us an understanding to the why!