2009! wow that is really crazy to me!
I have a few things that I have been mulling over and really want to find the time/energy to sit down here and sort it all out, but both have been running a LOT short these days, so you will have to bare with me, you meaning the few people in the universe who actually still read my blog since you really only get readers if you
1. post really exciting daily stuff
2. comment on other people's blogs frequently
3. avoid a way to be redundant in a very repetitive life!
well those are the reasons I think people read your blogs! I think I am lacking in all 3 of those reasons! which makes me remember that I started this for me and not for "ratings"!
I didn't make any New Years resolutions per say but I did join a Biggest loosers challenge and that has me motivated and freaked out all in the nice same package. I know I need to lose weight, I have never been so heavy and NOT pregnant! I could blame it on all sorts of legitimate reasons but the bottom line is the same and it is about 30 pounds more than I want it to be. According the body fat index I am almost 40 pounds overweight which is a scary thought! ....k being BRUTAL honest here and it kills me but then I shouldn't be worried I think my 2 readers will not judge me! please don't judge me :) I weighed 148ish all through high school and that was the weight I was when I left for Africa in 1991. When I came back in 1992 (Spring) I weighed 118..... I had a LOT of lovely insects (nice word for parasites!) that wanted a free trip to Canada living in my body and so I was quite thin. When I got prego's with Morgan 1 year later I was 125. Then when I got married I was 135. I then had several miscarriages and by the time I got pregnant with Emily in 98 I was about 145ish. Then I had 3 babies in 3 years with another miscarriage in there too....and while pregnant with Faith I went over 200 pounds. I don't know exactly what I weighed b/c I was too afraid to look at the scale, I literally stood there thinking thin thoughts and covering my eyes and told the nurse not to tell me.
So there you have my journey to being very overweight. I now weigh 183! wowsers! I was down to 165 2 years ago before we moved up North and I think the long cold immobile winters followed by my husband getting sick and the biggest stresses ever being toppled on me and whala you have an almost 20 pound weight gain........so here I go.....joining a biggest looser challenge where I will attempt to get down to 150-155 pounds! which I would be thrilled about! The challenge includes each putting some $$ which will go to the biggest looser percentage wise after 3 months. I am not really scared about loosing the money, which will suck, but not loosing this weight before I turn 35 will REALLY REALLY REALLY SUCK.
so if you think of me think THIN thoughts! :)
tomorrow my baby
is turning 10!!! double digits, she is pretty excited about it! 10 years! amazing!
She is such a blessing to us. We didn't think we could have a baby and here she came, totally loved totally wanted and has been such an easy baby, an easy child and a great kid! now she is getting close to pre-teen and we can tell cuz the hormones are changing and we have been thru this with M! we can see the signs! which is freaky. Not ready for 2 teenagers thank you very much! She is so good at school, so helpful with her baby sister who she lets sleep with her when no one else will cuz the snoring OH MY GOSH the snoring is unbelievable! but all Faith has to do is bat her eyes shed a tear and Em gives in. She is responsible and mature and she tells me she wants to hurry up and grow up so she can have a baby, her one goal in life is to be a mother and one day far far far far far down the road she will make a fantastic mother. She is kind and nurturing, soft and gentle, funny and witty and so much more.