back and frustrated
we just got home tonight from J's family cabin on a lake........so nice..... we went with Xangelle and her family. Xangelle and I have known each other our entire lives.....so to be all together...all 12 of us cuz she has 4 kids too :) was a lot of fun and very comfortable and what J and I needed. We got to laugh and sleep and swim and watch the kids play and actually relax. I did a very good job at trying to relax... I still have some pent up stress which has yet to come out and now that I am home, which still doesn't feel like home, I learned that a girl at work has taken a months stress leave which leaves ME all alone in a job that took 2 people with only 1 week training........ah yeah can we say I wish I stayed at the cabin and too make things worse when we got home we discovered that we were robbed...mainly I was robbed! Our house was broken in too but they only took my gold jewelery, which includes a necklace I bought in Africa in 1991 and my wedding rings and 2 rings one from each of my grandmothers....... I am totally sick to my stomach and feel really uneasy and totally upset. We also were notified by email that we are not getting the exchange student that we were really hoping was coming as that made things actually work for us financially.....the rent we are going to get on our house doesn't totally cover our mortgage and rent where we are living now is over $2,000/mth.. so I am feeling at a loss and totally discouraged. Not sure how we are going to pull this off, not sure how I am going to work get the kids ready for school still unpack all our stuff and attempt to make this house feel like a home and retain my sanity. I am just not sure and all I want to do now is go back to the cabin.