back and frustrated

we just got home tonight from J's family cabin on a lake........so nice..... we went with Xangelle and her family. Xangelle and I have known each other our entire lives.....so to be all together...all 12 of us cuz she has 4 kids too :) was a lot of fun and very comfortable and what J and I needed. We got to laugh and sleep and swim and watch the kids play and actually relax. I did a very good job at trying to relax... I still have some pent up stress which has yet to come out and now that I am home, which still doesn't feel like home, I learned that a girl at work has taken a months stress leave which leaves ME all alone in a job that took 2 people with only 1 week training........ah yeah can we say I wish I stayed at the cabin and too make things worse when we got home we discovered that we were robbed...mainly I was robbed! Our house was broken in too but they only took my gold jewelery, which includes a necklace I bought in Africa in 1991 and my wedding rings and 2 rings one from each of my grandmothers....... I am totally sick to my stomach and feel really uneasy and totally upset. We also were notified by email that we are not getting the exchange student that we were really hoping was coming as that made things actually work for us financially.....the rent we are going to get on our house doesn't totally cover our mortgage and rent where we are living now is over $2,000/mth.. so I am feeling at a loss and totally discouraged. Not sure how we are going to pull this off, not sure how I am going to work get the kids ready for school still unpack all our stuff and attempt to make this house feel like a home and retain my sanity. I am just not sure and all I want to do now is go back to the cabin.

5 comments:

Jensboys said...

I just wanted to say we really enjoyed the visit with J and J and a HUGE enormous thank you for the meat!

And you will be in my prayers. I know and understand how stress can compound and build and feel overwhelming.

Hugs and prayers.

Dawn said...

I can only imagine how awful you feel about the break-in - it is such a violated feeling! Not to mention all the other "stuff." I don't blame you for wanting to go back to the cabin!

Just Me said...

Hey Girl...remember, God provides, not Japanese or Korean students!! Your provision comes from Him - He's the source...- and He'll send the provsion one way or another. Don't be discouraged that this one student has fallen off - there are HUNDREDS looking for homestays - if that's the route you feel God is leading you to go! I know it's the initial disappointment...but don't worry - He'll come thru for you! In the mean time don't forget ot spend a few minutes soaking - sounds like you haven't had time to do anything that fills YOU up!! So...soak..be still..and ask God to speak - you'll feel better!

Elle*Bee said...

So sorry to hear about your worries! Keeping you and yours in my prayers.

Theresa said...

How sad. I'm so sorry. I wish we lived closer, I would gladly come and help organize and unpack.