I am on holidays right now....yeah for me! cept it would be really nice if I could unwind maybe sleep more than 4-5 hours and not have panic attacks while my brain counts the hours and minutes of when I have to go back home. I don't want to go back home without J. I know I probably sound like a baby and a whiny 2 year old but I am being real and honest. I know what I have to do and I can see the light at the end and I am just trying to hold on till I can get there.
We went to our old church on Sunday and a lady there had a word for me. She said she saw me standing in a waterfall....totally cool cuz that is my special place with God..... and she felt the Lord was telling me to put down the yoke that I have been carrying because He has one much lighter for me..one with Him on the other side. It was really cool! and I felt His presence all over me. Another young girl got a picture of the Lord placing a crown on my head full of beautiful jewels! how cool is that?! I know He is with me through all of this, I wouldn't have made it through without Him.
I also went to see my family Dr yesterday. I have a number of ailments that seem to be mounting and didn't want to see a Dr up North...love my family Dr! so anyways he listened to me and said after we move back down we are going to be doing lots of talking....yah that would be nice..he also said I could be having a lot of "fake" symptoms as my body is over dosed on stress and it would be hard to know what is real and what is stress induced. So he tested me for an ulcer and then gave me some meds to calm my stomach and help me be able to eat without doubling over in pain afterwards! ya that would be nice. He told me after we move and are settled to come and see him and we can see what symptoms I still have and deal with it then. He also said we need a holiday.... a real getaway sit with your toes in the ocean just J and me kind of holiday....oh MAN how I love my Dr....think I can get a prescription for that?? so we are planning one... a real holiday! we have never been on what I would consider a real holiday before! In fact in our almost 13 years of marriage we have been outside of BC 2x. Once to Edmonton for a friends wedding and once to his dads in California...with our 3 girls..Hailey was a baby at the time....not what I consider a REAL holiday! I am so excited but can't decide where we should or can go? I am working on getting our passports ready! ok how much work is that? I keep filling the forms out wrong...see a sure sign I need a holiday! but I think my loyal readers are already convinced! I mentioned Ireland... I know it's not warm and tropical but I loved it there when I went in 1992 and I would LOVE to go again..... should we do an all inclusive at some Mexican resort? Hawaii? I just don't know where we should go!