roller coasters and sailboats

It's always amazing to me how many big decisions one has to make in their life time! then I think I am too young to be thinking that!!! sometimes life seems like a sailboat just going where the wind sends you and others like a roller coaster full of extreme ups and downs! crazy to me!

I am definitely tired of the roller coaster and sail boats make me sick...literally I don't DO boats well :) and yet at times I love the thrill of the ride. Love the twists and turns and seeing where we end up!

So it seems to me that we have come to another BIG decision. It seems that we have made peace with the idea of moving back to the Coast. I don't feel like it is a failure or that we have given up or have a lack of faith. I feel that we have faced our options maturely and before God and have realized that for the next part of our journey we need to be back where our parents are. Not for them to take care of us or going back to what is comfortable but after praying about it I feel it is for a much needed rest.

Having said that I can totally see the fruit of why J and I were led here. Why we were here for the worst of his illness. I can see how close we have become together as a couple, together as a family and even closer in our faith. Although our faith has changed a lot, I don't think someone can go what we have and it NOT change!!, it has been for the good. If things are not good I am not going to pretend that they are, if I am struggling then I am going to be real about my struggling and I will always always put my family first! Time to be real. Time to stand up for myself and for my family and time to not go with the flow! Time to throw my hands up in the air and enjoy the ride!

5 comments:

hollibobolli said...

I love that you let the Lord guide your decisions.. and there is a time when you have to be there for your parents. I bet this next part of your life will bring you more joy than you ever could have imagined.

Dawn said...

Yes, life is definitely full of roller coaster rides - and I don't like roller coasters at all. But you're right, each incident and decision grows us in ways we never dream.

MugwumpMom said...

Wonderful Lala....I love the last part...time to be real, not pretend...love is anything if not authentic and real...and we learn it most in the hard places...my prayer for you is that you come of out of this "dark night" into a morning blazing with renewed expectancy that Yes - God IS Good and has you and J right where He wants you...in His heart and in His hands.
Can't wait to see you.

Shash said...

A Scripture God gave me at the end of last year and others in leadership have come and said they feel it's the same for this year and for you.

In Psalms 126 He says He'll turn your tears that you've sowed into joy and singing!

"When the Lord brought back his exiles (who returned) to Jerusalem, it was like a dream (it seemed so unreal)!

We were filled with laughter, and we sang for joy. And the other nations said, “What amazing things the Lord has done for them.”

Yes, the Lord has done amazing things for us! What joy!

Restore our fortunes (our destiny and our finances), Lord, as streams renew the desert. Those who plant in tears will harvest with shouts of joy.

They weep as they go to plant their seed, but they sing as they return with the harvest.

Elle*Bee said...

Trusting in God is a good thing. Since our only true Home is with Him, why not - as you said - just enjoy the ride.

Looking forward to reading about your next adventure.