I think you can all imagine how wonderful it is to have my family here with me. I love my family. I love that we are close in heart and spirit even if we are miles apart.
I hated having to go to work today and believe me it was awful. My GM seems to have good days and bad and today was a bad one and he made jabbing comments all day at me and others. So many want to quit and I am their sounding board. When he almost wouldn't give me tomorrow off and I wouldn't exchange it to work on Sunday???? like what is he thinking??? I thought this was it and I was going to "spout" off and quit there and then. I talked to J and had his blessing to do so as well. He finally relented but not before he let me know he was disappointed in me for even asking.......the mind games are endless........ so I have tomorrow off and J and I are talking how we can get me home.
I know that my girls have been affected by all the changes our family has had to face and I am feeling too tired from working to feel like I am able to do anything about it. They are only little for so long and then poof they are grown. So what can I do? can we really afford this? can we afford not too? J isn't getting really stronger, in fact working is hindering his progress...........so what sacrifice do I need to make? these are just some of the thoughts swirling through my head.
I know I just need to spend some more time where my heart is, on my knees and with my Heavenly Father to get the strength I need and answers for continued direction. And for this week enjoy my family and leave work at work which is a whole new challenge for me!