I couldn't sleep very well last night, well actually for the last several nights. Seems that at least one of the girls has been up with a fever, they are kind of tag-playing the fever back and forth. I think it has to do with the moisture that got into the basement. We think there is a clog in our well (drain) outside our window down there. Thankfully for now it is -16 again and things are too cold to leak!
So while I couldn't sleep I was thinking alot about Psalms 27 and how fitting it is for us right now. So bear with me as I walk through it. One of the main reasons I blog is to document what is going on in our lives and I wanted this written down so that after we are finished with this time of trouble I can look back and reflect on where we are. Growth isn't always seen but it is always felt!
this is from the Amplified Bible, my favorite version.
THE LORD is my Light and my Salvation--whom shall I fear or dread? The Lord is the Refuge and Stronghold of my life--of whom shall I be afraid?
should I fear the doctors reports? should I fear what I can see and what the worse case scenarios are? at times we do. There are several times a day when I feel the fear rising. I see how sometimes he is having good days and some days he struggles so much to walk. There doesn't seem to be a reason why he has a good day and a bad one. We thought if he takes it easy it was better but the last couple of days he has been resting lots and he has struggled still! so it is hard not knowing what is happening, how long is it going to happen for? BUT His word says whom shall I fear or dread? so I say it over and over cuz faith comes from hearing and hearing the word of God......I shall not be afraid, the Lord is my Light and my Salvation He is the Great Healer and our Provider and our Protector.
When the wicked, even my enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.
3Though a host encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war arise against me, [even then] in this will I be confident.
who is our enemy? well that is obvious but this report, this disease is our enemy. We sure don't feel confident all the time but we still have Hope!
One thing have I asked of the Lord, that will I seek, inquire for, and [insistently] require: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord [in His presence] all the days of my life, to behold and gaze upon the beauty [the sweet attractiveness and the delightful loveliness] of the Lord and to meditate, consider, and inquire in His temple
this has been the cry of my heart my entire life. Through the miscarriages and all the trials we have faced, I have stood and proclaimed that me and my house will dwell in the house of the Lord forever! It brings me strength to know this in my heart of hearts. Nothing that happens to me or my family will make us turn our backs on our Lord and Saviour.
For in the day of trouble He will hide me in His shelter; in the secret place of His tent will He hide me; He will set me high upon a rock
This particular scripture has given me so much peace through the last couple of weeks. Knowing we are being so surrounded by prayer, from so many believers and bodies of Christ to family friends and bloggers even........ it is like a shield of prayer protection and I know this scripture when the Lord led me to it was a promise for me and J. He is hiding us in His shelter, he is protecting us from the attacks of the enemy and setting us high upon a rock. In the New Testament the ROCK was Jesus! so I know He, Jesus, did it all. He died for all of our sickness and diseases and that we might live and have life. So we can stand on that.
And now shall my head be lifted up above my enemies round about me; in His tent I will offer sacrifices and shouting of joy; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord
God loves the praises of His people. When there is trouble and even when their is not, Praise ushers in His presence. It keeps your mind stayed on Him and not your circumstances. Praise lifts your spirit and brings peace and JOY! it works, J has felt the difference when I have put Praise and Worship cd's on. There is power in prayer....there is also power in praise!
Hear, O Lord, when I cry aloud; have mercy and be gracious to me and answer me!
8You have said, Seek My face [inquire for and require My presence as your vital need]. My heart says to You, Your face (Your presence), Lord, will I seek, inquire for, and require [of necessity and on the authority of Your Word].
9Hide not Your face from me; turn not Your servant away in anger, You Who have been my help! Cast me not off, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation!
10Although my father and my mother have forsaken me, yet the Lord will take me up [adopt me as His child
His word promises that when we seek we shall find, when we ask the door will be opened. Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and all His righteousness and these things will be added unto you. I have sought peace and I have found it. I have sought His presence and I have found it. He is always with me, from the beginning to the end He knows me and His plans for me are for good and not for evil, to give us a hope and a FUTURE!
Teach me Your way, O Lord, and lead me in a plain and even path because of my enemies [those who lie in wait for me].
12Give me not up to the will of my adversaries, for false witnesses have risen up against me; they breathe out cruelty and violence.
In all this I pray that J and I will learn more of the things of God. We pray that our testimony will be strengthened and so will our Faith. We know that greater is He that is for us then he that is against us. I don't believe with an ounce of my being that sickness is from the Lord, if He sent His Son to die for our sickness and diseases why would He choose to give it to you to teach you something? I know that that is a strong debate in the Christian world but I don't believe it. Every good and perfect gift is from above! Why it happens is the debate but for all Christians the focus should be that God gets all the glory. Lord, let Your Glory reign in our lives, let it go forth from us to the nations.
[What, what would have become of me] had I not believed that I would see the Lord's goodness in the land of the living!
This is a promise. That we will see the Lord's goodness in the land of the living! that means that we don't have to wait to see His goodness in us until we get to heaven! we can experience that here on earth. We can walk in our inheritance here, we can have freedom here, we can have healing here. So this is what I believe and what I am standing on, that we will experience His goodness - healing and restoration - here on earth!
Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord.
another promise! we can EXPECT the Lord to bring His glory to our lives. We can EXPECT healing. We can EXPECT His presence in our lives. We can EXPECT His hope and peace to carry us through. Again, Faith comes from hearing the Word of God, this is His word, for J and I for everyone who believes and calls out on the Name of the Lord, they SHALL be SAVED! Amen.