Day 4

My modem needs replacing, it maybe tomorrow or Tuesday! UGH!!

I'm feeling blah. Today has been a hard day. Seeing my big strapping man having trouble walking around the house isn't easy. He is experiencing terrible headaches as a side effect and they are immobilizing him today. He's lost his appetite as well. He can barely open his eyes right now.

My house is a mess. I spent all my energies cleaning the preschool's toilets this morning. I also haven't heard from any potential employers yet. There's only 2 ads in the paper for jobs that are above minimum wage; the jobs up here are pretty bleak. I have a friend who just moved up here - who has gone back to the coast for two weeks to make as much money as possible - she couldn't even get a job up here in a restaurant.

J's feeling a lot of different emotions right now and not all of them are good. Angry is one of them. I pray over him at night (out loud so he can hear me) but he's finding it hard to do it for himself. He's not ready for company either. He doesn't want to talk about it or feel like he has to "put on a show" for people.

The girls are finding it hard seeing him on the couch. Em told a neighbour kid that her dad was dying. She actually thought that he was home to die. I'm trying to keep things as normal as can be. There's a lot on my shoulders.

I have taped Psalm 27 onto my mirror in my bathroom. Verse 5 jumped out to me, "For in the day of trouble He will hide me in His shelter; in the secret place of His tent will He hide me; He will set me high upon a rock."

I'll keep you informed whether by me or by my sister Shash. Thanks everyone!

4 comments:

theresa said...

I'm praying for you and your family Lala....God is in control, I know you know that but that's all I got. I feel horrible that your husband is going through this. May you find some peace soon.

redheads said...

Hey Lala;
We are all praying for you and your family. May you have wisdom in dealing with the kids at this time. I pray that you will find a job soon!

Hurray for the new computer, but boohoo for the modem. Hope it comes sooner then later.

mom of 2 said...

I will continue to pray for you guys! I can't imagine how difficult it must be for the both of you...take care!!

Elle*Bee said...

My thoughts are prayers are with you and yours.