ok while I have been really proud of myself for coming up with my reward point system and sometimes it really does motivate them...............emphasis on the word SOMETIMES.......I guess they are testing me cuz J is gone. I don't know but after the attitude they show me and not coming when I call them in the park and at Costco.....I've about had it. Not only have they lost points but they are in the negative!!! cept for Morgan. She has been really good, thank goodness!
I keep thinking ok what am I not doing?
what should I be doing different?
cuz I hate feeling like this and I can't complain to J cuz what is he going to do about it and that will just make him feel like he has to come home and I don't want to add that pressure on him! I have to just keep praying for wisdom and patience..........ok can't type that word without hearing Axle singing and the whistling and the funky swaying back and forth....oh man how grade 11/12 is that! that would be 90/91 for me! oops I digress.....ok yeah you have NO idea how long I have waited to have a post where I could actually use that word!!!
so back to the kids........do you think they are just testing me and will get past this?? any suggestions besides beating them and screaming me throat raw?? and NO I don't beat them.....just tempted :0 Faith said to me tonight "I hate mama"........oh man not good
ok rant over
I do go pick up J from the bus station tonight and that makes me happy...... just have to get a handle on these girls I guess
I took Morgan to Junior Youth Group tonight, they played Capture the Flag, man I LOVED that game!!! she had a blast and said there is another special activity this Friday night that she wants to go too....it so good to see her fitting in........finally........and being able to be herself and love it here! so that is awesome!
oh oh oh and more with the friendly people here...... a neighbor who's house I can juuusst make out thru the trees came over with her son this afternoon. He kept hearing kids and wanted to come over and check us out so she brought him over to meet us and stayed for about 1/2 hour. I also got a phone call from a lady from the church regarding a ladies Bible Study and we ended up on the phone for almost an hour!! not getting much house work done but filling my days up with all 250,000 words I have a day! ya that's right... I said 250,000 words, God blessed with me a double and then some portion!!! my neighbor also came over for tea and I worked out at the gym with my friend from the coast this morning and then she took me out for breakfast with her son and her hubby, it is his B-day today! so I have done LOTS of visiting....
hmmmmm thinking maybe the kids are wanting some attention, maybe that is why they were so rotten today? they have been getting SO much of my attention since we moved here.......... oh man what would I do without this blog and getting my thoughts all out???!!! then again....I am on the computer SO much it bugs them...... hmmmmmm lots to think about.