cracking under pressure






I don't like feeling "out of control"...... like ever..... and I sort of feel like I am beginning to crack under the pressures going on in my life right now. I am taking Faith to the doctor in about an hour.....she is still walking funny and can't climb the stairs and I really think she needs a MRI. That is stressing me out. Knowing something just isn't quite right with your baby.......oh man, here come the tears again...... ok I may be pms'ing too but this is too much....feel like my emotions are extremely fragile right now and the dam just might burst.

I had my 3rd dentist appointment this morning, which is also the 3rd day in a row. Faith would NOT sit in the chair. She was freaking out. They were so patient with her and we tried 3 times to get her to sit.....they just wanted to clean her teeth....but I guess she has had enough trauma this week. She was climbing up and down the chair though and managed to fall twice and the second time she sliced the scab off her ankle and there was blood everywhere.............oh what fun. The bill came to over $400...thankfully my insurance is good to the 30th and so I only had to pay $100!! I also found out that Morgan has a cavity and I have to go back on Friday!! oh joy oh joy........NOT

To top all this off J has just entered his busy season with work....he is a landscaper....so.....I am basically a single parent until October........this is stressing me out!!! so I get too do all the school obligations, stuff with the kids, driving,,,,well EVERYTHING for the next 6 months by myself. I know there are worse off....poor Suz's hubby is away most of the time and some are single 24/7.....so I shouldn't complain.................but I am.....

Worse yet is that unseen pressure to continue to get the house ready to list....something that should have been done a month ago......Saturday we are getting our new kitchen flooring. I have so much more to do though, painting, touch ups, deep cleaning and de-cluttering, baseboards to finish and of course the rest of replacing the flooring....which I can't do.... just have to figure out how to pay for all of it....oh and of course cleaning out my gardens and ya well......pressure pressure pressure

the pictures posted are of the water feature J did in our backyard. He is really good at what he does...he made a water fall and a little creek that runs into the pond with a sprinkler in the pond....really pretty...wish it was nice out today so I could sit out there and relax!!

I will post later to let you know what the doctor says about Faith!

7 comments:

Renee said...

I'm sorry about all the stressors. I don't blame you for wanting to see about Faith, she's probably fine, but it's impossible not to worry until you know for certain that all is well. I'll keep her in my prayers.
Your backyard is pretty; it's handy to have a husband that's good at landscaping!

Faith said...

I am anxious to hear about little Faith!

mommyof4 said...

When I saw the pictures my first thought was "man that looks relaxing!" Hopefully it will be nice enough to enjoy it soon:) I will pray that Faith heals well along with Suz and Kimmy! So many are hurt. I think there are more people I know online in my prayers this week then people I actauly know! Please try and relax maybe you could go buy one of those soothing sound Cd's and pop it in whenever you start to feel stressed or even when the weathers not good enough to go into your pretty yard:) Take care!(((hugs)))

Wave's Word said...

You are an amazing woman,mother sister and Child of God. Your strength is in Christ - draw on him. You can do all things through christ. His hand is upon your life and he has given you many gifts. Like Your ability to write. I include you in my prayers daily. Enjoy the peaceful space that J created. I hope the plan is to move east.Hee heehee!

Kate said...
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Kate said...

we all know how you feel. i hate those moments in life. please let us know how your sweet baby is. soon!
ps - your backyard is just LoVeLy!

Kate said...

oops - my comment posted twice so i deleted one. sorry!